I don’t spend my days picturing them where they are, when I do think about them, I turn my thought into a prayer, and just get excited we’ve made it this far! Most days I can’t believe we went, passed court, and came back already! How are we seriously in our final wait? HURRAY!!
Oh man, there is so much jumbling around in my heart, so many different cool, amazing things God has and is showing us. But I just wanted to wait and share something with people who are already in the process of adoption.
I just wanted to tell you that our decision about opening up our homestudy to two children came about 2 week before we left for Russia the first time, and Andrew was mostly against it. We had to do a little extra paper work, but he said he would do it just for me, and just because, but just so I knew, no other child would be joining our family. (He’s the practical one 😉
I just want to encourage you, if you are in the process of adoption, to have your study opened to one more, even though you seriously can’t even afford the first one, even though you literally have no extra room in your house, and even though you are already taking on more than you think and know you can handle.
The reason I am saying this is because anyone can still say no, but when you cross over the ocean, things are made very, very clear to you quickly.
The first time you walk into an orphanage like that, many things become very clear, right away. You realize that you actually come from the wealthiest nation, not only right now, but in all of history, even though you forgot because we are constantly inundated with media and commericals telling us that what we have is sorely lacking and never quite enough. We are always made to feel like we need more, despite how much we truly have, in fact, most of us have too much! And when you are staring into a room full of cribs, on a floor full of rooms, filled to the brim with babies and children who are literally begging you to take them, arms up to you, hanging on your every word, content just to be near you, the truth comes out, and you realize–how much you truly have. And you also realize that all that stuff you have, isn’t even anything these children need, but it’s just you, and you are there, and you can do it. It might take a few days to settle in, but it might be immediate, either way it’s pretty inescapapble.
Anyways, it’s hard to put into words what you will soon be experiencing, and you will be there soon, but it’s best to have your options open, because you would be shocked at the amount of incredible little souls who wait, and wait, and would just love to love you. Plus, the most expensive part of adoption is the traveling, so if you are already going to be making the trips anyways… 😉
You can still always say no, but once you’re over there, you can’t always say yes.
Plus, some of the cutest things come in small packages