Just when…

I feel like my arms can’t remember your weight.

Like my mind can’t remember your exact smell.

When my eyes have finally refused to look at any pictures.

I realize that July is almost over.

And that makes this the most productive July of my life.

How many others can say that this month brought them one month closer to bringing two orphans into their family forever?

And I realize we are doing it.  We are close.  Closer than I even begin to think.

Hang on babies.

I know it’s hard.

But mama and papa are so close to you.  So close to taking you in our arms and hightailing it outta there.  And into home.  Into family.  Into love and never being forgotten again.

And in my moments of discomfort, I remind myself of these words by Francis Chan:

“But God doesn’t call us to be comfortable.   He calls us to trust Him so completely that we are unafraid to put ourselves in situations where we will be in trouble if He doesn’t come through.”